28 Days Later

28 days later and I feel human again. My motivation is back and I'm able to carry on with normal activities of daily living. I have been grocery shopping without fear and am back on track with cooking from scratch with real ingredients. I haven't wished for my own demise for over 3 weeks and at work I'm generally cheerful. I've started laughing again. What a welcome thing to be to do! And my favourite; I've gone back to actively procrastinating. I can choose to procrasinate. It's not just a never-ending dark tunnel in which I walk now.

My legs drown in sweat every night but that's the only down side of being on my Happy Pills.

Sometimes this feeling of "I'm alive" sits like a bubble in my chest ready to burst into uncontrollable laughter. I don't have the sensation of elation but I'm really looking forward to when it eventually comes.